Have you ever read something and realized it was YOU the writer was talking about? Okay, well maybe not really you, but it may as well have been. The words hit so close to home that you look over your shoulder to see if anyone is watching you, as you read...
I've finished One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. I'm reading it again. It's that good. On pages 168-169, Ann discusses "expectations". During book club it was discussed that expectations are premeditated resentments.
How many times have I let my expectations, ruin the moment? How many times have I expected something, only to see that others can't meet that bar? How many times have I expected perfection in the moment, only to be sorely disappointed? I struggle with the way I think things "should be". When things don't turn out the way I had hoped, I am left frazzled, irritated, and resentful.
Resentment. I know it well. I wish I didn't.
That insidious word, feeling, has stolen my joy on numerous occasions.
It builds up inside of me, until it blinds me to all else. I can no longer see the joy of the moment because resentment has me standing in darkness.
I bite the words as they come out of my mouth. Hard and bitter.
I need to let the expectations go.
Do I want to enjoy the moment that God gave me, or do I want to "be right"?
"Expectations, kill relationships", Ann surmises. I tend to agree.
I'm a work in progress.
Joy is in the moment.
I'm learning to "let go" so I can enjoy the moments God has given me. The lessons are not simple, nor easy.
All of life is learning.
It's hard to stay resentful... if I'm giving thanks. The two don't mix well. I will continue with eucharisteo.
We are discussing "letting go" this week at A Holy Experience. If you would like to read more, click on my Walk With Him Wednesdays graphic on my right side bar.
- Forgiveness, Part 3 (caregiving.com)
- The Power of Releasing Resentments: A Holiday and New Year's Gift to Yourself and Others (psychologytoday.com)
- All stressed out and nowhere to vent (simplyconnectingdots.wordpress.com)
- Forgiveness (tmlloyd.wordpress.com)
- Letting Go (gibsongirl247.wordpress.com)
- Letting go (karunamettacat.wordpress.com)